Posted by SatinDoll on November 6, 2006, at 13:43:37
I am sooooooooooo frusterated with my T or maybe it is with myself!!!!!!!AUUUUUUUUGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need a chill pill because I don't like drinking much especially in the afternoon by myself. I need something to calm down.Had my session and we both had our panties in a wad. There was transference and countertransference flying around the room. He thought that I regreted what I said on the phone to him about him falling on his head before my session like I normally do, when I leave a message like that. Well I meant every word of it! I said what did you want me to do blow kisses at you because I was upset.
Okay maybe I could of left a more mature message, like hey, You made me really upset today in our session, I feel very judged by you. Well I guess it got to him more than I thought. He even started to say normally he isn't bothered by phone calls, but then he stopped himself and asked if I regreted what I said. I said no. I said what do you want me to do lie and blow you kisses?
We were arguing "intellectlly" over a half hour about this. He was trying to give me a compliment last session, and I took it as a insult. (don't label me as an abused child) We just went round and round today. We were even looking up words in the dictionary so he could prove me wrong, that what he said should have been a compliment, not an insult. (didn't work, lol)
One second I told him I love him to death but he sometimes makes me so frusterated and when I left I told him that I hate him , with a passion, of course with smile on my face, ( I am sure he knew I was kidding)
So I left him a message when I got home, telling him I want to resolve this between us, and I wanted another appointment. I guess we will see what he says. I called his secretary, so I know he will be back in the office today. What do you do when two like minded indivduals clash?
I also jokely told him he could "bite me" and then he is like SEEEEEEEEEEE, anyone who would tell their therapist that has to be uninhibited. Auuuggghhhhh! If I see him at the gym I am going to kick him in the booty! LOL
Thanks for listening to my rant, I think I need a nap.
poster:SatinDoll
thread:700923
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