Posted by Lindenblüte on October 2, 2006, at 22:07:16
In reply to (((((((((((((((((((((((((HF))))))))))))))))))))))) » happyflower, posted by muffled on October 2, 2006, at 17:54:35
Happyflower,
sweetie, you can do this. It's a big step. Don't worry that you are going to fall into the hole all at once. You may just step into a mudpuddle.Your T cares about you. I know he does, and so do you. He smiles at you when he sees you at Target, and he cares for you in a special way. If you feel like you might fall apart without a hug, please tell him that.
And remember that no matter what happens, the sun will come up on Wednesday, just like it did today. You're going to make it through this. I know you will. Your mom is NOT going to be in the room with you tomorrow. Only your comfy teddy bear T with his nice voice and his caring smile. He'll keep you safe, Happy. That room is your safe place. Much safer than the woods ever were. Trust me.
When you go to the woods, you always have to come home eventually, because it starts getting dark, and you don't want your mom to call the police or worse- find you first herself. But when you go to your session tomorrow, your mom will NOT be there waiting for you when you get out of the office. You will be safe. You will walk out, a little shaky, a little fragile inside, but on your own two legs-- a grown-up woman, with her own dreams, and her wonderful talents to share with the world. Your mom is just a symbol for your fear. Her person is not at all dangerous. You can believe that if she ever saw the extent of your rage, she would be much more afraid of you than you would ever imagine.
You are strong, happyflower. If you are going to do EMDR, it's because your T knows that you are ready and that you are strong enough to handle the consequences.
Do take care of yourself, and don't be afraid to tell that man who lives in your house that he needs to produce dinner in bed for you tomorrow. And a girlie magazine. And a bouquet of bright flowers would be nice too. Tell him that you're having surgery tomorrow. Don't bother elaborating. Just say that it's confidential.
best to you, Happy--
I know you can do this :)-Li
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