Posted by ElaineM on October 2, 2006, at 17:18:13
In reply to Re: My newT is asking about SI (long as usual) » wacky, posted by Lindenblüte on October 2, 2006, at 12:26:44
Li, I think 24+hours is great (SE board), especially coming off a really long, bad binge. It's pretty amazing actually. Now it will be about adding another hour or two on to that time, or an additional 24hours....maybe that's pushing it. But try not to get too down on yourself. It's unfair to expect that a coping skill that's been building "forever" can be abandoned right away - or at least without some slips.
I've hesitated posting to your SI containing threads cause I've been wondering if you find descriptions of others behaviours triggering -- kinda like a snowballing way. Does it make you do it more, or less, or is it a completely internal, personal momentum? Just wondering.
Cause I always thought SI was such a rare thing. Infact, I was amazed when people admitted to me when I first started posting that they struggle with it too. I had only ever heard pdocs relate "Yes, I've heard of people doing that too", or "Well I've heard that some ED patients do it that way" when I've been interviewed. I always thought that I was the only one who did my two effed up ways. It's hard to believe that there could be others doing it the exact same way as me -- but they do, apparently. But I'd never heard an actual person admit how they do it. (well, once in treatment, but the girl got in trouble right away and had to shut up)
You've probably answered this already but, have you (or any others) told "regular-life" people before? like NOT professionals. Other than the regular stuff, I'd never told another of one of the really effed up ways until coming here. And they seemed okay with it. Well, I guess just not repulsed. But I've found that that version of SI happens for me in reaction to, or anticipation of, a certain memory -- The two things go together. Do you find that different memories ever bring out specific versions of your SI, a unique routine? (Again, just curious. You can say only Yes or No -- You don't need to elaborate if it's hard.)
blove, EL
ps. They made me try wearing gloves all the time (well, most of the time) so it couldn't be an automatic reaction -- cause I'd sometimes zone out and not realize it happening. I'd have to take the gloves off to do it, making myself aware of the process. It's a strategy for early on when you're learning to just "delay the symptom".
Since you helped me pick out my springy pink slipper-shoes, if you're up to it, I'd like to pay you back by helping you pick out some lovely gloves. Mine are pink...go figure!
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