Posted by happyflower on September 28, 2006, at 18:50:54
In reply to feeling triggered by my class today (childabuse ), posted by happyflower on September 28, 2006, at 18:02:05
I called him tonight, thinking I will leave a message, and he answered the phone probably expecting someone else because he answered his phone saying hello, which was really weird. I just got a cell phone and he has caller ID, so I bet he didn't know it was me. LOL I sort of paused and said hello, and he said this is (first name) stumbling and I told him I didn't expect him to answer the phone. (long silence from him)I think he was really caught off guard. (he was probably thinking Oh, sh*t! why did I answer!)(it was after hours) I then said I am calling to see if by chance he had an opening tomorrow. Well he said he is going to be out of the office due to a minor surgury he is having (he didn't say what). He said it wasn't a big deal, (but I didn't need to know that), because I am now a little worried because no surgury is risk free.
I asked him If I could tell him what it is about. He said yes,
so anyways I told him that I am really upset due to my class today and that I see some of my personality issues due to my upbringing. He doesn't "do" therapy on the phone, so that was all I could really say ( i know his boundries) Well he said that this would be a good subject to talk about on Tuesday that really ties into what we need to talk about. (what I kinda avoided talking about last session).He did say that he would be in the office on Sunday to check his messages and stuff and if he gets a cancellation for Monday, he would call me on Sunday. It was very nice of him to offer, it has been quite a while since I asked for a sooner appointment.
Now I do feel kinda vunerable for telling him, like I really opened up that book. Well it is obvious that my childhood is still haunting me and I need his help probably with EMDR. But I a really scared because I feel this touched a nerve in a big way with me, it is getting harder to control my emotions regarding this when I am in his office. I really try my best to "stay composed".
Well at least I did get to talk to him (which was kinda comforting to hear his voice and concern) Because it would have been a couple of days before he would have gotten my message to call me back ( I don't call his emergency number).
But somehow I have to try to concentrate on my big test tommorrow in another class. But I think I might do some journaling over the weekend and talking on babble chat. I am really nervous.
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