Posted by sunnydays on September 9, 2006, at 18:56:50
In reply to Re: worried about T » sunnydays, posted by Daisym on September 8, 2006, at 22:55:13
When you said you worry that he'll change his mind at any minute and not want to work with you anymore, that's exactly what I worry about. It's almost impossible for his words to stick in my head when so many times I email him or have trouble talking or telling him something in a session I think, "This is it, this is the time when he'll change his mind and be sick of me." But he says that's not how therapy works, that he won't get sick of me. But then I worry he would, but just wouldn't tell me.
But I do think the relationship is healing. Sometimes when I am going to sleep I imagine my T sitting next to my bed and just being there keeping me safe, and it helps me sleep. And just knowing he is there if I fall apart has helped me take some big risks I don't know if I would have if he wasn't there. But I worry that I am way too demanding because I email him a lot.
Thanks for responding. I get so much from your posts when you post, even if it's not to me. You write wonderfully.
sunnydays
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