Posted by wishingstar on August 28, 2006, at 16:53:16
Does anyone ever feel like you're just living one therapy session to the next?
I only go once per week, and soon, only once every other week. I just saw my T today and my next appt (next Wed) already seems impossibly far away. I count the days every single day of each week.. sometimes it feels like it's all I think about.
Even if I could afford it (I cant), it wouldnt be possible to go more often. I had my second to last session with Anne (T here at home) today.. we agreed/she told me/who knows that it just isnt working out between us. She seems to think this is a purely intellectual decision and everything is fine, while inside, I'm just dying. I know she isnt right for me, but I saw her for probably a year.. and I trust her.. it's so, so hard. And her not seeming to get that makes it even harder.
I'm going to be seeing Laurie, the T I saw over the summer, from now on I think. As you guys might remember, I was staying with my parents and saw her then. I'm back home now (got back about a week ago). It's a 2 hour drive, and I'm a full time student, so theres no way I can go more than once every other week. Theres just no way.
I called a psychiatrist last Tuesday. I've been putting off getting meds for financial reasons, but finally just broke down and did it. I figure I'll put it on a credit card. But you know what? A week later, and he still never called me back to schedule. I called and left another message today, but I already dont trust him. Oh well, he's just for meds anyway.
Everything is just wrong. I'm in my last year of a masters degree in a field I dont like nor plan on using. I just broke up with my long-term boyfriend, who was basically the only friend I have left in my town. Now I'm losing Anne. I feel so incredibly alone and unhappy. And I just dont know how to fix it.
poster:wishingstar
thread:680906
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