Posted by muffled on August 26, 2006, at 0:41:01
In reply to Re: I need my T right now (child abuse triggers), posted by happyflower on August 25, 2006, at 21:31:03
> Thanks Muffy,
>
> I am only 37 and this happens to a lot of people as they age but when it happens this young, they belive it has something to do with a injury from long time ago, (like what my mother did to me). It is bad enough I have to deal with the emotional memories but now physical reminders that my mother beat the crap out of me. It just really sucks because I thought when I heal the inner parts of me, I will be okay.***Well, at the risk of being REALLY annoying. Your the same person (wonderful, special one) you were before you found out. You will be ok. You will cope.
But now I have a physical injury that will just get worse the older I get and eventally be crippled all because of what my mom did.
***you may or may not be crippled too badly. Thats not absolute. there are medical advances everyday.
Lotsa people are crippled up for alot of reasons. However...I am so angry, I don't think I have been this angry in a very long time.
***I utterly understand why your angery.
I am so angry at this woman. I feel nautious with rage. I cannot even begin to understand the depth of your anger.
It is too much. I just want to hide away and never come out. I feel like giving up. life just sucks. period.***HF will prevail. Don't let that bitch from hell win.
Now I will suffer physically for the rest of my life, that sucks. I wish I was never born.
**Well. I'm glad you were born. I bet there's lotsa people that are glad you were born.
Yeah, I saved my dad from being sent to Vietnam, but look at the cost of that is, me being alive.
***How did you save your dad from being sent to Vietnam?
You don't have to answer if you don't want to.I'm so so sorry that your in such a dark place right now.
I wish I could somehow make it all gone. That all the bad stuff would never have happened. At least not so bad anyways. I wish I could suck the pain from your body and soul. I wish I could help you so bad.
All muffy can do, cuz I kinda useless.
Is I sit beside you HF.
We both sit.
We sit and wonder.
You can cry if you want. I don't mind.
You can scream and rage if you want, I won't get scared.
Cuz you my friend, and you ok.
You ok , you hear me.
I like you and I sit beside you, and the anger can flow and then run into the earth.
We can take big cleansing breaths.
Suck in good air.
Cuz air is good.
Blue sky so pretty is good.
Hugs are good.
Music is good.
Friends are good.
A good burp feels mighty good too.
So does ice cream.
Soft cat fur and purrs are good.
And dog slurps.
And fluffy clouds.
Yep, they good too.
And the smell of popcorn.
And the warmth of sun on my skin.
Sigh.
I wish I was smarter somehow.
Sorry if I stupid.
Bye.
Muffly
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