Posted by happyflower on August 10, 2006, at 11:29:02
Since my session on Monday, I am just a heap of emotional mess right now. I thought I was okay with termination, I am better, right? I am not to sure I am ready.
Well it feels like my only friend in my life just told me that they are terminal and only have 6 months to live. :( How do you say goodbye to someone who means so much to you? Setting a final session is like planning a funeral. It is tearing me up inside, I can't stop crying. Why go through the termination process when the end result is the same? Why not just not show up anymore to my appointments?
I am sorry everyone that I haven't been supporting the recent posts, I just don't have the energy. I feel like just going in to my dark hole forever and staying there where noone can hurt me anymore. Why do people who mean so much to me leave me? I just don't want to try anymore, relationships always end up hurting me. How can I ever trust again? I am so sad right now.
My T is on vacation and isn't available by phone at all. I want to tell him how I feel, but I don't think he wants to hear it from me. Sorry for my depressing post.
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