Posted by pegasus on July 21, 2006, at 12:25:53
In reply to Thx Dinah and Daisy!, posted by pegasus on July 20, 2006, at 8:56:30
Man, I just gave a big presentation to the whole company (something I have to do now and then as part of my *former* job). My heart wasn't in it, and it definitely wasn't the best I've done. But it went ok mostly. I even put in a funny last slide with a top ten list and trivia quiz. And everyone laughed and thanked me and said it was a great talk.
And then I went back to my desk and collected copies of the work I've done over the past 9 years, to put in my portfolio for my job search. It's so dang sad.
I have a meeting at 1:00 with my boss and CEO to make my last plea for a job I can live with at this company. I have my proposal all printed and copied. I don't expect it to go very well. At best I'll have a job I don't like as much as what I've been doing.
I'm just dragging around here depressed. But apparently I can function when I have to. Just not for sleeping and eating. My T forgot to call me yesterday when she said she would. My pdoc rescheduled me for next week. I don't think I count worth sh*t. Why did I think I did? This job gave me an illusion of mattering, which is part of why I liked it.
Oh, nevermind. I don't even know why I'm posting.
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