Posted by wishingstar on July 16, 2006, at 19:29:27
I am considering admitting myself to a local hospital psych unit for a few days or so. I have never been inpatient before, although definitely should have at times. I was wondering if anyone could share their experiences/thoughts/etc regarding that?
I am feeling much worse than I have felt in a long time the last few weeks. I am starting to feel unsafe with myself again (not actively so, but enough that I'm afraid of what tomorrow will look like, you know?)
To admit myself would be a huge burden.. I'd have to take time off work (many issues involved there), lie to a lot of people (or be honest, but lots of problems there too) about where I was, and likely pay a LOT that my insurance would not cover, on top of thousands of dollars of medical bills I already have from non-psych related things. Because I'm not feeling actively suicidal at this moment, and becase of all those issues, I dont know if it's the right decision or not.
I just need a break. I need someone to hear that things arent okay. I need to be able to stop and take care of myself for a minute, and quit trying to keep going like nothing is wrong. Sometimes is very wrong and I just need help.
I'm sorry to post so much recently when I really have not contributed much to others. I am just not at a place right now where I really can produce anything helpful or expressive for other people right now. I really do genuinely care about everyone on here, and I am still reading every message... but Im sorry for being less than an equal member. I promise I will make it up when things stabalize for me a little. Thanks for understanding everyone.
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