Posted by Racer on July 13, 2006, at 21:13:42
In reply to Re: Dunno, but... » Racer, posted by Jost on July 13, 2006, at 10:49:33
See, about the weight, remember that I'm anorexic. Even when I'm fat, I'm usually restricting to some extent -- I gained the first ten pounds on Paxil without any changes to diet or exercise, for instance -- and my weight is always very, very upsetting to me.
The people in my family who comment on me being fat are people with weight problems of their own. No one is hugely obese, but they're quite heavy, and probably moving into the obese range.
And they scream and yell and tell me I have to do something when I'm thin.
And the last time I had a meal with my aunt, about a year ago, during treatment for AN, when I was gaining weight and had a meal plan, etc, she said something about me, "getting off my fat @$$." It was hard enough for me to eat anyway, and that just stopped me for about another week.
There's judgement, and just general lack of respect for me in any sense, and lack of respect for anyone's boundaries. I call them The Human Steamrollers, because they just drive right on over you...
Thank you very much for your reassurance and comfort. I really do appreciate your words.
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