Posted by muffled on June 12, 2006, at 14:13:18
In reply to Re: ((((((((((((Tamar))))))))))) » muffled, posted by Tamar on June 12, 2006, at 13:38:12
> Funny story… I never showed him any of my injuries, but mentioned to him about the photos I took and asked if I could leave them with him. He had suggested I could leave something with him, and I thought of the photos. But when I mentioned it to him he looked quite alarmed.
***Have you asked him why he looked alarmed? I often make assumptions about what my t is thinking. She keeps teeling me to ASK and not assume.
I asked if it was appropriate and he said he didn’t know.
***So why couldn't he ask someone????
So I asked him to think about it, and I told him he didn’t have to look at them. But he never mentioned it again and I couldn’t bear to bring it up.
***Yeah, that why I fax stuff to my T. Though I don't think she 'gets' alot of it.
So I don’t know if he ever thought about it. He probably forgot. He’s good at forgetting. (I’m such a bitch.)
***I can be a bitch too :-) HA!!!!
Mebbe you could ask about it , if its important to you. Cuz this sort of stuff does mess up the 'theraputic relationship'(urgh! HATE that set of words!!!)
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> > My GP etc. wanto put me on seroquel....
> > Mebbe you need a diff. med too if your still needing to SI so intensely?
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> I’m starting to think it’s a good idea.
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> > I want to wrap you up and make you safe and to somehow suck the hurt away from you :-(
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> That sounds really nice :)*** Well, imagine me with my knife and hiking boots, sitting beside you on a wall. And we together so we safe. And we drinking coffee and harassing guys that walk by. And we safe and having fun. And its ok. And we ok.
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> > You are smart and eloquent. Kind and considerate. Your just in a rough place right now. But its not forever.
> > Celexa made me SI much worse. Zoloft is ok at lower doses.
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> The SI only became regular and frequent since Prozac. When I wasn’t on meds I hardly ever did it….***Alarm bells!!!!!!!!!! There are MANY AD out there. Unfortunately the only way you know how you personally gonna react is to try them :-( and find what works.
I ran out of zoloft, OH MAN! I been cranky! So I got an emergency 7 day supply from pharmacy and see my stinky poo GP (see I a bitch too!) on Fri.
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> > Noboddy asks me bout me scars either.
> > My hand was all bashed, my GP didn't say nothing when I was there, cept 'want me to bandage it?.' I said no. Then later she phones mental health on me.....
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> Grrr… I hate people who make assumptions. Why should she presume to call mental health if she hadn’t asked you about it?*** YEAH!!! I gonna piss on her CAR. Come up and help me!!!! ;-)
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> > Mebbe when you want to SI you could send out a bunch of babblemails and if anyones around we can chat? Or that chat thing that replaced 'open'?
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> I will try really hard to do that next time. I need to find ways of stopping.***Intense emotions require intense stopping mechanisms. Mebbe you can yell stop loudly, and that will seem so strange that you WILL stop and babble. Even if I got noboddy to talk to I post and reply and it gets me over the moment until I take benedryl and goto bed.
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> Thanks so much (((((Muffled)))))
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> Tamar
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***Thank-YOU! Tamar
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