Posted by happyflower on May 8, 2006, at 19:53:37
I am trying to get it all out and everything I am doing isn't helping.
I am working out everyday, jogging, yoga, weights, cardio.
I am blasting my trumpet as loud as I can until I am exhausted.
Sunday I gardened for 7 hours till exhustion.
I take relaxing baths with music
I read books
I play with the kids
What else is there? I just feel like I have this inside of me an it is just building no matter what I do.
I feel so frusterated, my running is getting too hard and it is so discouraging. I know it has to be anger holding me back.
My kids are arguing all the time and it drivingme insane.
Then I have my husband acting like everything is noramal and expect me to forget everything that has happened this year, heck he won't even talk about it, just wants to shove it under the rug.
Then there is my T , well you know that story.
Do you ever have so much anger you feel like you are going to explode? What do you do? I want to call my T and just scream as loud as I can, F*ck life, f*ck the world, living sucks! Will I ever be able to stop fighting for everything?
poster:happyflower
thread:641534
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