Posted by orchid on May 2, 2006, at 18:35:31
What good is to work on my feelings? What does it matter at the end of the day anyway? I haven't done anything productive - all I have done is spend time in something which doesn't lead to anything.
But then what is life without feelings? Everything in the world revolves around how everyone feels.
Yet, why does it feel like such a waste of time when I try to understand how I feel or I work on myself? What am I working towards for? And why do people usually scoff at people who talks about feelings? And yet get attracted to people who are really in touch with their feelings?
I am already 29, and have had somewhat happy some days and somewhat sad some days. But what does it matter at the end of the day? What does life really mean? Just time spent? And is the question how well you spend the time? Is that all there is to it? As long as happy days - sad days > a certain number X - you are successful and if not you are failure? Is that as simple as that? And is it what I should be looking out for?To increase that number X?
This is what lot of idle time leads me to - and I know I better stop it now, or I am off to a downward spiral and there I will go into the dark holes of depression.
But then I have too much of time on hand, and I don't feel like doing productive all the time with it. I do many things, and yet I am left with so much time.
What is the purpsoe of this post - nothing. Just to confuse myself and to confuse people around here :-)
poster:orchid
thread:639381
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