Posted by orchid on April 24, 2006, at 15:37:11
In reply to Re: An apology for my post yesterday » orchid, posted by Dinah on April 23, 2006, at 15:27:16
Thanks Dinah for understanding. It is precisely what I am going through right now.
And you are right about the difference in the culture. Affairs/attachemnt to other men (leave alone married men, even unmarried ones) are still a very different thing in my country, and perhaps that always is in the back of my mind. That is perhaps the reason I swing back and forth from feeling ok to totally feeling repulsive and guilty etc.
And also the normal marital fidelity that I am beginning to develop is making me go back on this attachment to therapist. Whatever else my husband might have been, one thing he hasn't been is to be unloyal to me - even in feelings. So I get horrified many times when I think I failed in that. And it is hard to empathize with myself, so I go into this all repulsive and guilty mode and I think my posts end up conveying that.
Again, thanks for looking at things from my perspective. It helps a lot to ease my mind.
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