Posted by Veracity on April 13, 2006, at 13:31:22
Sometimes I say things in situations, either one-on-one with people or when talking to groups and I come across as sounding really, really stupid. Like, I can't ge the words out right or my voice shakes. And people look at me like, "You okay, or what?"
Ugh.
I do that with my therapist sometimes and it's quite frustrating, although she's always patient and nice. But the thing is, afterwards, I can't let it go or forget about it. It plays over and over and over. And in a way, it's a Catch 22 because talking about feeling that way requires that I talk and talking leads to my feeling this way.
I know this is something I need to work on in therapy... but I was just wondering if any of you have trouble with this and how you handle it? The fact that I am really nervous and out-of-sorts when talking with people is not me distorting my experience, it is what it is. I really am flustered and nervous and my voice shakes.
It's just the feeling of embarrassment and regret that I can't shake. And it's so disconcerting that I feel this way about therapy, which is a relationship that I really do like.
Ugh. I feel like just bawling.
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