Posted by wishingstar on April 6, 2006, at 11:25:01
In reply to WishingStar -- Are you hanging in there?, posted by TherapyGirl on April 4, 2006, at 14:42:04
I just got home from my session.. I'll probably post more later after I have time to process more, but I just wanted to let you know I made it. We talked a little bit about how I felt angry and upset that she left.. but I had a really hard time saying yes, that is actually how I felt. But she knew. I still feel sort of like she doesnt care for leaving me all week, but seeing her helped.. some. I'm sure I'll feel fine again in a week or so.
She lent me a book that she thought I might be interested in today. I plan to read it before I see her next week. It's great to have something out of her office to hold on to.. it makes it, and her, feel more real. I'm sure she has no idea I connect with it in that way though.
We also talked about how I'm afraif of saying anything that might upset or hit a vulnerable place in her. I KNOW she can take care of herself, but I still worry. She basically just told me that she knows that sometimes I need to leave my rational self at the door and that she will take it with a grain of salt, since she knows the anger is coming from a younger part of me... and also that if I was to hit an emotional part of her, it means she has her own work to do and thats fine. She said she appreciated my concern though, and thats big for me.. even if it is irrational because of the therapy/client relationship, at least she knows I care.
16 days was a long time.. even though I'm still feeling sort of shakey about talking to her and wanting to see her, I hope I dont have to do that again.
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