Posted by JenStar on February 4, 2006, at 9:54:50
In reply to Gulping sobs in group tonight, posted by Racer on February 3, 2006, at 2:00:45
oh, Racer, I'm so sorry. weight and food are weird, scary horrible topics, and people judge us ALL the time on how we eat and how much we weight! I HATE it!
I'm sorry your family acted in ways that seemed harsh and cruel to you growing up, and that even still you get comments about eating/food.
I've always been on the heavy side, and I'm "used" to being criticized about my weight, although I suppose you never really get "used" to it in the sense that it stops hurting. When I was a kid, I was in GREAT shape (good athlete) but could still have lost about 10 lbs (now it's much more, sadly!) One time, I remember our family doctor pulled at my baggy sweater and said, "So, is this your 'fat suit' to hide your weight? You should really lose ten pounds, you know!" Well, I DID know, and it hurt a lot that he said that, even though he was RIGHT.
I don't know. I have an addiction to food. Alcohol I don't need; I can leave it alone. I've never felt the urge for drugs or cigs, even after trying them. But food - I crave it, dream of it, can't stay away from it!
aaarrrgggh. I wish weight was not a thing that people used to judge us. :( Or that we use to judge ourselves. Racer, I hope that you are able to heal and move past the ugly history with your family, and that your emotions stay strong through all this.JenStar
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