Posted by muffled on February 3, 2006, at 13:13:18
In reply to Now what?, posted by antigua on February 3, 2006, at 8:35:02
> I'm not sure where I'm supposed to go from here, after telling my mother about my father abusing me when I was little. I do notice that it has let me think more negatively of him, something which is kind of new.
***yet sounds appropriate?
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> I saw my T this week and said, "I guess we're done now, right?" She just kind of laughed and said, "Well, I would like to see you again," which made me feel better. I don't panic at the thought of giving her up, well maybe I do a little, but I think I might have gotten as far as I can in therapy. There is still one huge, dark memory that I can't access, but since I've tried everything, I think I can live w/o knowing. As long as I don't emesh myself with stupid men that remind me of my father, I think I will be o.k.
***sounds like you've learned alot on your journey :-)
I have a dark thing too. But my toughie2 has it I think. An its the protector and not around much. So I doubt I will ever know. I'm starting to accept that. Its a little worrisome when you get that sudden flash of feelings. But I have found that they go away. So I guess thats OK. I can live with that.
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> Maybe the thought of termination is just too scary. My T told me once that termination could take 10 years! I think she was just being nice.
***she sounds real nice
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> I do need to get a job now w/college looming next year for my oldest, so maybe we can work on that.
***cool. I don't think I could get a job right now. It would sure be nice to earn some money though! Make me feel more useful or something.
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> I feel good, but I'm so afraid of new demons that may surface.
***With the way you write I think you gonna be just fine. And life is full of sh*t. We just got to deal with it as it comes, thats all. And you have lotsa new tools that you have learned to use to deal with the sh*t that comes. I dunno if I talking to you or me! Guess its both.
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> best to all,
> antiguaTake care Antigua.
Muffled
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