Posted by fairywings on January 4, 2006, at 19:25:05
In reply to I just can't reach out to my T **trigger**, posted by happyflower on January 4, 2006, at 13:07:46
(((Happy)))
I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad about what your T did. If you can't call him back, and don't want to talk to him right now, maybe a letter would help get "things off your chest"? He needs to know how much he hurt you, that you feel so incredibly abandoned, and he shouldn't be impatient with you bec. you're going every week now. You are doing it bec. you needed it, and you're paying good money for him to help you. When's your next appt., and are you going to go?
I know exercise has been a big form of pleasure and release in your life lately, maybe you can immerse yourself in that until you can get all of this straightened out. Are you still doing the music? Does that help? I've found that there are only certain things that help get me through short periods of time, and I have to do one or the other to get me through. The time that's in between is very painful. Maybe you'll find the same?
Please don't let this situation make you feel worthless or any less than what you truly are, and that is an incredible person with a lot to offer. You're talented, kind, and compassionate. Your kids do need you very much, they love you, and want you to be happy and well. Trust yourself and go with what your heart says as far as therapy, but please be safe and take care of yourself during this time when you're feeling so hurt.
Did your T tell you what was wrong with him? I know at your last appt. he seemed worried and impatient about something; maybe that's got him upset, but even so, he shouldn't let that interfere with your issues, esp. during your appt. times.
I hope you are okay. Please email me.
fw
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