Posted by muffled on December 21, 2005, at 20:56:31
My T wants me to get a psych asessment and proly go to a psychologist eventually. She also wants me to join a DBT group.
I been feeling bad , so I went to GP for zoloft and clonezapam. T wanted me to on stuff in new year but I couldn't wait. She phoned my GP to clue her in to what was going on a bit. My GP (long time GP) says to me what my T said cuz she says she don't wanto talk behind my back. Thats nice. But it was just what me and T had already talked about. T said I was getting worse to Dr. She didn't say that to me specifically.
Anyhow I think T grows tired of me. I think she was really put out that I spazzed last week.
I think she thinks its bad that I so stressed after appts. But isn't that normal? We talk and stuff thats so ahrd for me, so of course I stressed. She says weird things sometimes.
I phoned her cell Thurs night at 10 pm cuz I was totally spazzing. I NEVER normally call her cell. I just leave messages at her office.
Anyhow, I left a rather garbled message on her cell, and she did say she got it (next day?) cuz she had a big huge dinner party she was getting on. She said she thot she phoned Sun. Anyhow, it was all abit odd.Sorta seemed like she was making excuses. You would have thot she would have clicked in that something was big wrong since I phoned her cell.
Then at one point she said jokingly that she wasn't even gonna apologize bout not returning call, cuz of what she'd just explained to me, but I didn't really get. She's got a thing about phoning I think.
And yet, when I left message at her office re: me going to GP she called back quite promptly.
Should I just let this go or bug her about it cuz i don't really understand. I think she was a bit rattled over my freak out. I think she's a bit rattled cuz I'm 'getting worse'. But really I think it would get worse cuz I trying to do things that are hard for me, but presumably it gets better with practice.
She says I have a phobia to emotions.
My last appt Ithink I was there well over an hour, mebbe over 1 and a half hour.
I guess she wanted to get info on what happened.
I feel lost and confused. Don't see T until Jan 3. GP that week too. Dunno bout the rest.
The clonezapam seems to work better than the xanax for me at the moment.
I dread the zoloft. My guts are alredy bad from stress.
Sigh.
Anybody got anything clever to tell me that I'm missing cuz I so mixed up?
Yep, like that clonezapam.
Muffled
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