Posted by littleone on December 5, 2005, at 14:42:19
In reply to Re: Tokens holding their T-ness, posted by daisym on December 1, 2005, at 18:10:46
> And for the hanky, take it back in and ask him to put his initials on the corner (take a sharpie or something.) This will personalize it again for you and you'll never forget where it came from. (not that you would)
Okay firstly, what's a sharpie??? Some sort of knife? Me and knives don't really get on.
And as for the hanky, it's got his initials embroidered in the corner already. It's already very personalised. I just can't keep it associated with him. I guess it's all part of my object constancy problems.
It worked really well at first because I could picture and feel him giving it to me when I saw/felt the hanky. But I don't remember any of that now. I mean, I remember that he gave it to me, but I can't picture it or feel it or anything anymore. It's just something I know. Like I know the sky is blue or ducks say quack or whatever.
I have a lot of trouble holding on to him in my mind. Usually I can remember him throughout the evening after a session, but that's about it. Sometimes I can't even do that. Sometimes I lose him as soon as I've walked out of his office. Makes me want to run back in and grab some part of him that will stay with me a bit longer. I don't mean physically grab him. More like grab part of his essence.
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