Posted by crushedout on October 10, 2005, at 12:59:47
Hey guys,
I haven't posted since a few weeks ago when I was dealing with some intense sexual/childhood needs stuff (two separate (???) things).
I started using drugs a lot since then and have completely detached from therapy. We've talked about how the stuff we were talking about kind of drove me to use drugs so that I could stop feeling so needy and dependent on her. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm doing this.
And now I really want to take a break. The reason (and I really really believe this *is* the reason, even if that doesn't sound credible to you guys) is that my insurance is running out and I'm going to have to switch, and because of the new deductible, I essentially have no insurance coverage for therapy for November and December. So it makes sense to me to take a break, or at least severely cut back during that time.
My T said today that she didn't think such a break was "clinically indicated" -- can you believe she used that therapist jargon on me???? :) I actually thought it was cute. But I think it's fine for me to stop. I plan to go back full-force in January.
What do y'all think? I'm probably giving too abbreviated a version of what's been going on with me, because if I required myself to give you the whole, long, ugly story I would just not post at all. I'm reaching out to you all from my drug-infested haze. Help?
poster:crushedout
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