Posted by JenStar on September 21, 2005, at 17:12:16
In reply to Re: getting a bit hacked off..., posted by alexandra_k on September 20, 2005, at 23:03:51
hi Alex,
first of all, I'm sorry you're going through such an administrative and *ss-filled mess. Why systems and people suck so much sometimes, I surely don't know, but I'm sorry you have to deal with it.About "evil" thoughts -- I have them too, and I think most people do. We all have fantasies (I'm pretty sure!) about hurting someone who's hurt us, especially if that person is an ignorant moron with a brain full of ripe dung, a person who is less worthy of love than a fungus that grows on the toes of a homeless person, a pathetic sack of sh*t who gets off on their own petty power trips.
Yes, I've met those types, and I have to say that I certainly have fantasies where these people meet up with a large speedy bus, or suddenly have a ball point pen become embedded in their throat. I have fantasies where I'm the one who's in the power seat, and I have the ability to deny them what THEY want.
But thinking it doesn't mean that you really WANT it to happen, or that you would DO it if you could. I think the thoughts only confirm the fact that you feel completely powerless, buffeted by an uncaring system and uncaring individuals. I think it means that you feel angry and desperate to change your circumstances, and that you're confused about how to do it "legally" or "nicely".
I would say...enjoy the fantasies for what they're worth. Crush those heads, vaporize those cars, vandalize those tires...or whatever it is that is going on.
And THEN...start working on other more legally and socially acceptable ways to solve the issues. :)
I hope you're OK. You always offer such good advice here. I hope I can offer at least a tiny smidgen of advice back at you. :)
JenStar
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