Posted by gardenergirl on September 16, 2005, at 8:20:45
In reply to Re: Hi, I'm GG. I'm a cryer » gardenergirl, posted by 10derHeart on September 11, 2005, at 12:22:09
> I'm pretty much similar to you, gg.
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> I can't remember a session for a long time where I haven't cried.I've had some, and I usually comment on it. Sometimes those are really dissatisfying sessions, though. (guess I'm a masochist?) But sometimes you need those sessions where you stay very superficial or situational. There's got to be some balance and relief from the deep work, I think.
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> I don't mind too much any more. Try not to think of how ugly I probably look. When I've mentioned that to T., he says he's so focused on my tone of voice (hurt) and what I'm telling him (pain) at those times, he NEVER notices what crying might do to my face.Good to know. I'll adopt that answer for my T, too. :)
> I usually don't cry on the way home. Just feel drained and relieved and somewhat *lighter.* Funny, though, I often cry on the way there. I think that's anticipation of the fact I *can* cry there, and I just think too much about what I might say, what he might say, and the tears
> come...Wow, I haven't done that. I can imagine sitting in the waiting room having already cried.... That would be uncomfortable for me. Although that just happened a few weeks ago. I had a pdoc appt. right after my therapy appt. The look on the receptionist's face when I walked in, and it was obvious I had been crying was kind of funny. She looked like she was thinking, "Most people LEAVE her like that, but they don't walk in like that!" But then again, I suppose people do come in when they are in crisis, so I suppose I was projecting there.
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> Lately I've noticed, I have this tendency when my T. asks about something, or makes an observation, and it hits a nerve I didn't realize I even had till that second.....as I'm crying I keep saying, "don't say that, don't say that." If I peek at him then ('cause I've probably been looking down 98% of the time) he looks sad. :-(Oh...it's so hard when someone says or does something that hits that nerve just right, isn't it? It's kind of like when you are upset about something, and you say to your friends, "Don't be nice to me right now" because the minute someone shows kindness, the waterworks open.
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> <sigh> It's hard. How can we produce so many tears anyway?!A very good question...Hey, nice to know I can be productive in something! I don't procrastinate on crying...:-D
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> your friend in sogginess - 10der
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gg
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