Posted by kerria on August 25, 2005, at 7:38:36
In reply to Re: Yesterday a part came in therapy:( » kerria, posted by gardenergirl on August 25, 2005, at 6:06:14
Hi Gardenergirl,
Thanks for writing.
T and i do have the same goal- communication with parts but survival needs to be first.
There aren't that many Ts that treat DID and the ones that do don't have room to take on new patients. also- all the Ts that specialize in DID know each other. Every T i would call would know my T- they would know him personally or know his name . Once you have a T it's hard to change even with Ts- i didn't find anyone to take me once they found i was seeing my T. They are worried that we can't make the transition- it is difficult to have internal agreement. i hope someday i move to another state.That's probably the only way. Or even better- that my T would start caring about how it feels to be me in all of this.i like my T but really dread therapy. i think that the communication method at that place he works is easier for some patients than others, the others- like me are 'bad' patients. T will never stop plugging the program and it worries me because it isn't safe for me.
i know i've been in unsafe places lots of times and there's nothing i can do. T will say i could call him when in crisis but i'll always be sorry i did because it isn't any better when i call.Stuck.
i'm stuck in t. with my T and if it doesn't work i'm the only one who will suffer. why i hate having this horrible disorder. we're so isolated. i hope i can get better and just quit.
i wish there were a support group - i always am in some degree of crisis because of lack of support.thanks, gg, for being there.
take care,
kerria
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