Posted by kerria on August 24, 2005, at 15:51:45
In reply to Re: Yesterday a part came in therapy:( » kerria, posted by cricket on August 24, 2005, at 15:27:32
(((((Cricket)))))i don't understand why there's so much of her thoughts now. i'm sharing memory.
tears. i think i know why she's disabled. i hate to have these thoughts.T doesn't understand. What's outside in therapy is so different than what's inside. He always says he didn't know i was upset. we hide. So many problems with parts.
i don't know why T says things that are so hurtful. He always sounds like he doesn't care about me- that he just met me- i've been seeing him five years.
It feels like i can't go on - i probably lost my job. i got ready to go to work but it didn't seem like the work part would come. i couldn't even call because i'm not saying my name to say i can't come in.
i don't think i can see T again. i need someone to help - no where to go. so afraid about what will happen . So upset with T and he will be defensive.
i'm in so much pain and he doesn't know or he doesn't care.
Maybe i should call psychDR. i wish i had a dr that cared about me . therapy is bad for me.
i don't have inside or outside support and a T that cares what happens to me.
Thank you ((((ShortE))))), (((((Daisym)))))
and (((((Dinah)))))
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