Posted by annierose on July 22, 2005, at 6:59:53
In reply to Re: two weeks down, five days to go ... » annierose, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 5:44:40
Dinah -
Yes, it's definitely more of a want. Although I have zero desire to quit therapy, I realized this week that if it was taken away from me, for completely unknown reasons, I would be okay. But I still have some major issues that I am working on, and I'm glad to have her at my side to complete the work (well, complete isn't exactly the right work ... how about ... to continue the work).
She mentioned before her vacation that I like knowing that she is just there, available. And when she goes away, that comfort isn't there. And that feeling is probably part of the pre-vacation anxiety that I feel. Hmmmm ... my mom was rarely "there" for me, always sleeping, napping, resting, don't bother me, had a headache.
But once her vacation starts, I am truly okay. I think about things I would have shared with her at my following session (if there was one!) or compile a list of things I must remember to tell her. Last summer's break was harder for me.
I do think it's okay to "want" more than "need". I think for you, IMHO, you're afraid if you keep moving forward in therapy, you'll no longer "need" your therapist. Maybe you'll need him in a different way, a different phase of the relationship will blossom. He promised he wouldn't terminate you.Annierose
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