Posted by cricket on June 22, 2005, at 11:38:25
that I want to switch from once a week therapy to every other week?
I know that many of you find that once a week is not even enough but here's what I see as pros and cons.
#1 I can pay him more per session (closer to his real fee) and still not go completely in debt. This is important to me. I am ashamed about how little I am able to pay.
#2 I would have a week to recover from some of the intense work we're doing. Right now I have a couple of days of fog after a session and a couple of days of anxiety before a session, leaving me very little time to just forget about the whole d*** thing for a few days.
#3 This one is secret from some parts of me. But I think it's also my way to say to my T "Nyah, nyah, I don't need you at all. In fact, I want to see you less."
#1 I have very little connection between sessions, don't remember much of what was said. If the time between sessions is twice as long, maybe there would be such little connection that it wouldn't be worth going at all. I might even forget to go.
#2 If I miss a week, my anxiety level about going back gets higher. I imagine this would level out after a while but right now it's a lot harder to go back after two weeks rather than after one.
#3 This one is a secret from some other parts of me. I would miss him. I need to see him every week.
I know that I need to think this one out carefully because if I do ask for it he will agree. He has always let me make my own decisions about when and how often I go with little or no discussion. I am almost certain that he would never say "Oh no, I think you need to stay coming once a week." So I can't have any hope of that.