Posted by Jazzed on May 29, 2005, at 10:36:36
I went back and read all the threads from the past two days, and it seemed like I missed a lot. I got such a kick out of the "most embarrassing things" thread. I hope sometime I have some funny things to relate.
Anyway, I wasn't online because I had a bad reaction to the meds I was on. Made me have suicidal thoughts that would just pop into my head. This is the 2nd med to do this to me. Weird.
Anyway, instead of asking for help from my p-doc, I decided just not to go back, and to quit taking the med., which was safe to do, it wasn't one I needed to go off of slowly. I had reservations about not talking to the doctor, but I was ashamed and embarrassed that this was becoming such an ordeal to find the right medication, and I felt that I was becoming a thorn in his side. I have SO much trouble asking for help from anyone.
Anyway, the day I called to cancel my next appt. I felt really bad, and felt weak for needing help, was afraid the doctor would be mad at me, etc..... After a few bad days, and several bad nights, my husband told me I had to call, had to make an appt., had to get help. He was really worried and supportive, thank God!
Anyway, I was able to get in to see the doc the same day I called, which shocked me because he's really hard to get in to see, but I was really grateful. He didn't seem mad, and switched my meds, so I feel better. Just getting in the same day, seeing him, seeing that he wasn't at his wits end with me, and getting him to Rx something else made me feel better. The new meds seem to be good so far, so I'll keep my fingers crossed. I have another appt. in two weeks, and I think it's time to get myself a T to work out some of my obvious issues!
Jazzed
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