Posted by Shortelise on May 28, 2005, at 14:01:03
In reply to Re: termination continued - sad » Shortelise, posted by Daisym on May 26, 2005, at 21:29:39
I AM ashamed. I am so ashamed. And I am ashamed to be "addicted" still to therapy. It's so ugly. Yes, it's the label that hurts so much, it really is. The "you are addicted" words. It feels like a pointed finger. Labels. SInce I was hospitalized as a teenager, I have hated labels, and it didn't occur to me until you defined it as a label. Thank you, Daisy!
It's not so much that he is withdrawing the kindness, it's that he's not helping me through the process as he used to. (Forive me if I contradict myself.) What do I mean ... I'm not sure. He is still kind, but not nurturing. It's as if he is kindly saying, no, you can figure that out for yourself. No, I won't baby you through this. No, you it's not appropriate anymore to approach this or that in this manner.
I guess he feels there are things I need to understand, ways I still need him - he says that if I were to leave and not come back at this point,he has complete confidence I would be fine, that I would be more than fine. I could do that. But as we all now know, I am ADDICTED to therapy.
(string of invective here)
Thanks DaisyM. I do trust that he actaully knows the best way to do this. I just hate him for it. :-)
ShortE
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