Posted by LadyBug on April 19, 2005, at 12:44:17
In reply to Breakdown a breakthrough?, posted by Excellent camper on April 19, 2005, at 11:34:43
Will,
Your story is a bit familar to me. I had a major breakdown with major depression and major anxiety about 8 years ago. Suicide was a constant thought but never acted upon. I've never been the same. At this time I started taking meds and seeing a therapist which I still am seeing. I've grown in many ways. 8 years ago when this was going on I walked off my job I had worked at for 23 years. I took a leave of absence hoping to heal enough to return. My health failed me and even after a year I had to give my leave of absence up and quit my job. I started school but it landed me with a part time job. I love what I do but the money isn't very good. But the job has done wonders for "me".
I'm always telling myself I wish I could go back to the person I was before the depression. Before isn't an option for me. I have felt I was too broke to fix!! I felt this way for years.
I hope you can learn to forgive yourself and find good things about yourself. We all have good in us it's just hard to see it when the bad clouds our mind. I know, I've been there.
Hang in there
poster:LadyBug
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