Posted by Dinah on April 10, 2005, at 10:52:53
I never remember my dreams, if I dream at all. Two dreams in two nights about any one topic is something I haven't experienced in a long time.
As usual, my dream doesn't require a lot of interpretation.
The first night I dreamed he terminated me without warning. And I was trying to figure out if I should carry out my plan (because I was sort of in shock) when I woke up.
The second night I again dreamed he terminated me. He was leaving town to go live on one of those farms in Israel (my therapist is Christian so it's not too likely). But this time I was able to take good enough care of him that he eventually decided to just go on a two-week trip to the farm instead. He agreed (at my request) for me to go see the fill in therapist we had discussed once or twice (but that he's told me I can't have), which was an unspoken acknowledgement that though he wasn't going to abandon me this time, he would soon.
I guess how I took care of him so that he made this choice would be important, but it's awfully fuzzy. You know how dreams are. The words you use to describe them when you first wake up are all you ever really clearly remember. The rest is like trying to grab smoke. I think it had something to do with personal problems at home, and it was his wife who wanted to move there. I ran into them somewhere and was able to talk to him about it, but more than that I don't really recall. Oh, I do remember that even in the dream, I was really careful to maintain good-enough boundaries. As odd as that sounds in the circumstances. I think it meant I made sure there was nothing in our interaction that the licensing board could frown on.
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