Posted by B2chica on March 2, 2005, at 17:27:07
Hello all.
you were right on the money cubic_me. When my hubby and I arrived to meet with pdoc and T, that was the consensus. My pdoc asked if I wanted to go into specifics with hubby in room or go straight to treatment plan, I said tx plan. They both agreed they wanted me to go to the hospital ('right now'). After that the conversation was going in and out. But I agreed-hubby drove me home picked up clothes...etc. and got checked in. just got out yesterday right before T appointment (with the T I’ve been WAITING for)-
I can’t say for sure that I would have died this weekend but I can tell you with 100% assuredness (real word?) that I would have made the attempt.
Infact, they didn’t even take my ‘purse’ from me, they took my inhaler and a small perfume bottle but my xxx was left in the bag. Saturday a different nurse was ‘incharge’ of me and asked how I was…I said assured that I need to die, she asked how and I said everything I see is an opportunity not mentioning the xxx. After a little more assessment she looked through the drawers and saw my bag and because of the 'straps' locked it up, a ½ hour or so later I broke down in group and went back to my room bawling. The nurse came in and asked what triggered this and I said that she took my bag and I told her about the xxx. She wanted to see it (maybe didn’t believe me) I took it out and showed her. She asked if that was my original intent and I said no, but that it was my ‘option’ and that she took that away.I can’t even think about had that 'assertive' nurse not been on duty that day where I might be at right now.
See dr. Bob, sometimes i say that this is a ‘lifesaving’ place because of the emotional support (which it IS).
but it was here that someone suggested that I write a letter, which I wrote, the right people got it and I got help. So though I’ve said it several times before from an emotional stand point, I’m going to say it again in a physical sense…babble saved my life.Thank you all. For the words, thoughts, prayers and support.
I’m still a little shaky and ‘out of it’ but i’ll try to pop on tomorrow for a bit.(alive)B2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:465615
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