Posted by Angela2 on February 28, 2005, at 10:43:53
I go to therapy because I have had severe difficulty making decisions in the past. I have had trouble following through on goals. I have stopped going to class all together at times. I have had difficulty getting to places on time. I have had severe problems relating to people interpersonally in the past. These problems are not present at the moment, but the underlying tendencies are still there. I believe that talking about my feelings towards these inner tendencies is important. It helps me know where I'm at. Support. Most importantly for support. I go to therapy for support. Should I just stop going to therapy because my problems are not present? It just keeps coming back to the way I feel about her. She's condescending and distant. it makes me not want to spend the money to see her. It's also a money issue. I think I'm doing OK though with out seeing her. I've noticed that recently I have called her to make appointments out of impulse. For example a few weeks ago, I was worried about my relationship with my boyfriend. I wanted advice. And the advice that I get from my parents is not very helpful or supportive. Maybe it's BECAUSE they are my parents, but I think I am just programmed to seek the advice from others and not really value what they say. I guess I'm just trying to figure out if it's really necessary that I call her, or if I can wait until the next time I see her. One time I called her about a social anxiety related problem. But all I really needed was someone to put things in perspective for me. I could have come here. But sometimes I don't like coming here about my perspective/ distorted thinking based problems. I don't see a lot of people posting about stuff like that and I would feel stupid saying some of the things my mind thinks here. I wish there were a way to calm myself when I feel the urge to call her about my distorted thinking though. I think I need more medicine for paranoia. But when I take more, it makes me sleepy. Really sleepy. Like I can't get up in the morning. And I don't care if I miss my classes. I do care, but right when I wake up, my sense of reason and what's important just doesn't seem to be as present as when I'm fully awake. I think that paranoia related social anxiety is what causes my impulsivity to call her, and I would rather just talk myself out of it, reason with myself. Or not feel paranoid anymore. Does anyone know of an antipsychotic that doesn't make you sleepy? What are its side effects. I guess I better post on the other board to get that question answered. OK! Wow! This is the longest post I've ever written! Am I a boring thinker? Thank you for reading to the end of this whoever has, you get a gold star!
So to recap, I want to start seeing my t less, and I want to take a medication that doesn't make me sleepy.Responses? Advice?
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