Posted by rainbowbrite on February 23, 2005, at 12:26:09
In reply to Returning to work, posted by TamaraJ on February 23, 2005, at 11:35:26
>Ok, this is hard. I will return to work on the 14th of March after an extended leave because of both physical and mental health issues. I am a nervous wreck!
That is hard! I feel for you. It is never easy to return to something after a break.
>I am now having serious doubts about my abilities and am worried that I will be a disappointment and a failure when I return. Until now, I have always had a good reputation at work as a high performer and my appraisals have been outstanding, both of which have always come as a shock and a surprise to me (it is always in the back of my mind that it is just a matter of time before they see what a dud I really am).
You are a dud? you fooled me and thats hard to do.
>What if I can't do it anymore?
You sound like an extrememly competent person who has a good head on her shoulders, I am confident you will be successful.
> I have made some demands that are in my best interest in advance of my return. I have asked to be relieved of my management responsibilities and be given a role where I am not having to work 11 or more hours a day and be responsible for others in a managerial sense. After months of disagreeing on this issue, my boss has finally agreed, and has offered me two things - both of which would be extremely interesting an challenging.
Thats an incredible start! I am glad you are taking care of youself in this way.
> It's the fear of my inability to enforce boundaries and stand up for myself and my needs. Oh God, what am I going to do?
you just confronted someone with something that i think most would find very difficult, I think that is amazing and a big step. It is hard to protect ourselves and i am not that great at but it sounds like you are starting on the right foot, even though you are scared.
when I read your posts you sound so strong and knowledgable. If you carry what you have inside into the office you will do great :)((Tamara)) Take care of yourself
Did you get reflexology done?
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