Posted by B2chica on February 21, 2005, at 12:57:52
In reply to Re: **Urgent...please, posted by rubenstein on February 21, 2005, at 12:40:21
you are so right. it's not easy.
part of me is scared about this weekend but the other part is SOOO relieved i've finally made a decision that i will accomplish.
-i've just emailed samaratin's.
i think that the further the week goes the more 'assured' i'll be. so maybe i should call pdoc. but i feel...feel like a big baby crying wolf..calling and saying 'i'll do it i swear'. but he did say to call.
one thing is i trust him very much, and i know i won't miss our friday appointment. as of now i have full intention of telling him on friday what my 'plan' is. but...what if by then i'm so sure that i don't??
i'm in such a dither, i can't concentrate on work. all i think is that this is the last monday i'll have (and sad as it is i feel good about that). i'm Finally ready, it seems like everything has fallen into place for this 'plan'.
-i just realized this conversation is not heading in a good place.
i apologize to anyone and don't mean to scare or hurt upset anyone.i emailed 'jo'. and can only hope for some type of advice from them. can't decide if i want to even to to T appt. wed.
-but i just love my pdoc so much, be assured i will NOT cancel my appt with him and Will see him on friday.thank you very much R.
i'm taking it minute by minute.God thank you for being here.
b2c.
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