Posted by Susan47 on February 18, 2005, at 9:45:05
In reply to Re: Quick Thought, posted by Susan47 on February 17, 2005, at 16:27:10
to realize I used the concept, the idea, the emotions of love to hide the fact that I was jealous and angry. I once said to my therapist, "I don't like you". He wasn't too happy about that. I remember his tone of voice, disappointed but understanding. After all, I had no real reason to dislike him. To his mind. To my mind, every reason. He was everything I was unable to be. He also had everything I didn't have. He also represented the man in my life who pretty much destroyed my chances of ever ... what? Ever what? How did that man stop me from being actualized? He destroyed my self-confidence: I replayed that with my therapist. I made that happen. What else did he destroy? My chances for love. I replayed that one too, with my therapist. What else? What else?
Was I so frightened of my anger that I disguised it as love? How often have I done that with real men in my life??????