Posted by Dinah on January 23, 2005, at 15:52:10
In reply to Re: ((Dinah)) what Tabitha said!---I agree, too » fallsfall, posted by gardenergirl on January 23, 2005, at 15:32:14
I'm sorry I didn't say enough when I posted. I sometimes start mid conversation. I actually find the fact that I'm feeling guilty encouraging. It seems less self absorbed than I have been, and I really don't want to hurt him or anyone else. I didn't mean to distress you guys as well.
I guess by CYA I meant the part where he did want to tell my psychiatrist and husband. His genuine caring comes from the fact that he's honoring my desire not to, even though that's leaving his A a bit exposed to his mind.
I'm actually working today but I will get back to you. I need to sort some stuff out in my mind before I can reply sensibly.
But really, I'm better off than I was Friday. (wry smile) Friday it seemed like there were no options at all. This morning it's like I suddenly came to my senses and saw that I was hurting someone. And you guys too. I'm sorry. I still don't see a way out of this mess, but I don't think I'm likely to run away from home when I'm feeling like it would matter if I did. That old conditioning.
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