Posted by Susan47 on January 20, 2005, at 23:54:57
In reply to Re: PS » Susan47, posted by lonelygal on January 17, 2005, at 18:37:24
What I'm learning is not to forget myself. It was horrible to feel like nobody to my T, but part of that, I believe, was feeling like nobody to myself.
I'm learning, I HOPE I'm learning and it's not just a temporary thing, but I hope one day to realize permanently that I matter most to me, and I hope everything good comes out of that.
I see glimpses of it, every once in a while, but I have to walk through the pain of not being most important to someone else, first. I don't have a clue whether that will make any sense to anyone, and I may have better words for it tomorrow. I hope so. I'm an atheist, but "pray" is such a good word, sometimes. I pray for hope, every day.
And I miss my therapist terribly, it's a gaping wound in my soul, and I don't honestly believe it will ever completely heal.
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