Posted by crushedout on January 3, 2005, at 18:42:30
Saw the new T today. My first reaction to seeing her was, "Wow, you look hot" (in my head -- not out loud). That freaked me out a little but it was also almost reassuring. Like, OK, this is not about the Ts -- this really is about me. And that means that I did not have to walk by and pass up the love of my life (i.e., the old T was just a pawn in the psychological game my mind is playing on me). So maybe I *can* fall in love again. And if it unfortunately has to be another T first (before it can be a "real" person), at least this one has good boundaries and maybe will be able to help me figure out what the heck this is all about. So I can move on and have a real life instead this imaginary, therapy-centered one.It was also good to talk about how hard I've been working and how much pain I've been in and how much I've been missing the old T. She was really empathetic, without being overly involved. Which is how therapy is supposed to be.
I'm still struggling but I feel like I've got both nostrils out of the water right now, rather than only one breathing through a straw (sorry for the unfortunate metaphor).
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