Posted by messadivoce on December 20, 2004, at 2:17:31
Well I'm at home for Christmas. So far it's been okay, because I've been feeling good. I'm hoping it lasts. Last Christmas I was having a major depressive episode and I heard for months afterward from my parents how horrible I was. All I remember from that was how terrible I was feeling. Last Christmas was honestly a fog. Anyway.
I was helping my mom with the Christmas baking today and the subject of my therapy/depression came up. I told her I was feeling better. She said she could sure tell, and that I was much easier to live with. Thanks a lot. She asked about the new T I was seeing. I told her I liked her but she is nothing like my old T, whom I miss. And that was all. She didn't ask anything else.
I think she and my dad are just happy I'm back to "normal" again. I've been suffering depressive episodes since I was 12, and they've always tried to believe that I was okay in spite of it. My T has used the word "denial" in relation to my parents. I'm beginning to believe it's really true. They will never understand this. They will just blame me when I'm bad and be happy for their peaceful surroundings when I'm better.
Does this sound familiar to anybody? I am so frustrated with coming home and feeling like I've crash landed on a different planet. Does anyone have adolescent or adult kids who have done the depression/therapy/relapse thing?
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