Posted by lifeworthliving on December 15, 2004, at 23:43:13
i saw my t this afternoon before she leaves for long vacation in the morning. i've got more coping skills than i did last year so i don't expect to fall apart and return to old ways of coping (like i did last year!) still, it's a long haul... 108 meals. she made me a tape (not nearly enough of her talking but i still love it that she made it), i've got the blanket, and beautiful plant trimmings that she had cut and ready for me to take when i left (she was thinking of me and that made my heart smile). i wanted to load my bag with books, another picture, and everything on her table. lol. the only reason i didn't take her sweater is because she was wearing it. it's strange to feel so young when i'm this old. january seems like an eternity. i don't even have another appt, i'm not sure why i didn't make one? i'd normally try to get something her first day back but because i can pop in and say hello and hug her when i want to, then that's what i'll do on her 1st day back. oh my god, i'm going to miss her so much! i wanted to throw myself on her feet and wrap myself around her ankles but i didn't want fires to get all hot and bothered and start posting links to sights about how unhealthy my attachment is. it is waaaaaaay better to love and lose (even if only temporary) than to never love at all. transference my ass.
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