Posted by crushedout on December 14, 2004, at 20:38:10
In reply to Re: i need help (poss. ***trigger***), posted by Rigby on December 14, 2004, at 13:45:29
my back's gotten a lot better but it's still somewhat messed up. you're right: the muscle relaxant knocked me out (and f'ed me up bad, perhaps, emotionally) but it didn't do a dang thing for my back. i think i'll lay off those things (unless i decide to use them to do myself in -- semi-joking -- sorry).as for the ex-t, i'm still feeling very torn and missing her a lot. i'm sure that's playing a role in this severe depression. rationally, i guess i think i did the right thing, but i'm not even sure if *that's* true. i'm kind of assuming that everyone around me knows better than i do, and i'm borrowing their opinions. i wish i could feel sure myself that what i did was right.
i miss her very much. it's painful.
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