Posted by daisym on November 21, 2004, at 16:55:51
In reply to Preverbal pain, includes possible trigger, posted by gardenergirl on November 21, 2004, at 12:58:49
(((GG)))
This is one of the reasons I never let anyone touch me!
I think for whatever reason, your defenses are down enough for you to tap into this pile of sorrow and let it out. I've been researching grief, especially grief held in for a long time. The deep sobbing you spoke of is what makes me think of this.
I find it very disconcerting to not understand every emotion or feeling that descends on me. It makes me anxious and frustrated. I'm sure as a professional, it is very, very hard for you. But just because you are good at figuring other people out doesn't mean you will have the answers to your own internal dilemmas. I think you therapist was wise to caution you about chasing some unknown memory, it will come up and out if it is there. You don't want to drive yourself crazy.
As far as being destroyed after sessions, I think you are going to need to plan for some down time afterwards if you are moving into doing some of this deep work. I have found that I'm exhausted, even if I haven't given into the sobbing. My brain just wants to click off for awhile. Be really careful driving! I find it is helpful to tell my therapist if I have something I have to be together for afterwards, so we can keep things easier.
I hope writing it down helped clarify things. Seems to be the day for that.
Daisy
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