Posted by Skittles on October 21, 2004, at 20:36:54
At least that's how I'm feeling about her. I've been having a really hard time lately and I haven't been honest with my T about it. Yesterday afternoon (right after my session, no less) I saw an attorney about having a will written. Last night, the fact that I had gotten so far into planning my own demise made me scared. I called my T this morning and asked if she would be willing to see me twice a week for awhile. She said yes right away and didn't even make me tell her why I wanted it.
She's going to be out of the office Monday and Tuesday so we can't get two in next week, but she offered to come to the office to see me on SATURDAY so I wouldn't have to wait until my appointment next Thursday. She said, "Now Skittles, I live very close by and it would not be unusual for me to do this. I wouldn't offer if it was a problem." I wanted to say YES so, so badly, but I declined. I don't think I could feel good about myself if I intruded on her private time (maybe it has something to do with the fact that my mother used to - and still does - tell me that I am too demanding and that I wear people out. Ya think??). The fact that she even offered tells me that I matter to someone who isn't *required* to care b/c of blood, marriage, etc. And to me, that is very precious.
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