Posted by daisym on September 7, 2004, at 17:19:45
In reply to Neither fish nor flesh, nor good red herring, posted by Dinah on September 6, 2004, at 23:50:14
Dinah,
I hear your frustration but still it must be nice to understand yourself and be comfortable with who you are.
I'm continually shocked at the pieces and parts of me we keep finding in therapy. I never expected this...me, the totally in-charge, organized and scheduled to the hilt mom. My therapist and I agree that it isn't DID..."just" age states that got shunted off as I protected myself from what was happening. These states aren't independent personalities and don't take over completely. But they are still a powerful force, full of emotions and expectations and needs.
I guess maybe I would research regression and see if anything pops out at you from that. I've done a lot of reading around self-psychology and the building blocks your core self needs to be strong. And Winnicott's theory of attachment makes so much sense, especially if you see a clear separation of emotion from intellect. So many of us learned to trust our intellect to guide our decisions because our emotions were either inaccessible or brought out a neediness that was dangerous. We learned to protect and overshadow these parts, keeping them from maturing as we "grew up."
Sometimes I wish very deeply that I hadn't ever sought to access these emotions. It is so much more painful than I ever expected...
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