Posted by Susan47 on July 21, 2004, at 10:54:52
In reply to Inside a surrealist painting, posted by vwoolf on July 18, 2004, at 5:53:55
> Thanks again for your very useful comments. It is so helpful to have a place like this to share experiences and doubts.
>
> I am feeling more confused by this transference issue than ever though. Reading through your posts and thinking through the night, it has struck me that I have a transference not only towards my Pdoc, but also towards my therapist, albeit a negative transference. Just about everything I say about her is actually only true about me. In other words wherever I look I am seeing only myself. I feel quite terrified at the thought, as if I am going mad. Is there no reality?
>Yes, Virginia, (just kiddin) there is a reality. What you are seeing is you and I think that's a good thing. Sounds like you're struggling with much the same stuff I am ... seems to me my T is always reflecting myself back, and I think that's probably what it's about. In the beginning thouh he reflected himself back and I thought that was harder, because THEN I'd get confused: what was me and what was him? Because his opinion really mattered to me, and I wanted to be perfect (haha). So I kept adjusting myself so I'd get that nice look of approval on his face. Well, that just had to stop.. as I've said somewhere else here, I ended up looking at the walls when I talked to him.
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