Posted by cubic_me on June 19, 2004, at 13:05:18
In reply to Re: suicidalness, posted by rockymtnhi on June 18, 2004, at 12:24:04
Thankyou to you all for your great responses. It looks like I'll be busy for the next month whether I like it or not, which should help with the thoughts a little. I have been considering making some kind of 'happy box', but if I looked at it every time suicide crossed my mind I'd be looking at it 24/7. Even when I'm at my 'happiest', going out with friends, seeing amazing bands playing, having wonderful experiences, suicide still crosses my mind frequently. But it seems that when I really do have the desire to kill myself, I can't muster the energy - I suppose that's lucky :s
I think I like to know that suicide is an option for me, even if its one I'm not choosing to take at the moment. Like someone said before, I'm not scared of living, I just don't want to be alive, and I think that everyone should have the option of whether to live or not. I wanted my closest friend to live so much, but after 2 years of despair and suicide attempts, she finally succeeded, and as much as I miss her, I understand that it was her choice, and it is what she wanted.
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thread:357795
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