Posted by terrics on June 4, 2004, at 20:23:23
This DBT stuff is insane or the T is insane. I am being sued at work which I have known about for awhile. Today my coordinator more or less called me a liar about the incident that caused the law suit. I am not lying, but I did forget to do something and that is what caused the problem, not what she told our lawyers. I was FURIOUS! When I get that angry I cut. But today I thought I would try the DBT thing first. One of the things is distraction which I am doing right now. Another is to call the therapist BEFORE you cut. I called her at 2:00 pm. It is now 9:00 pm. This is a record for me. However, her not calling has made me angrier than I was before. I have never called her. I just cut. So something is wrong here. My thought has been that she does not like me cause she has cancelled 2 out of 6, and gives me dirty looks. It is funny because on the last day with the old T. she said I was easy to work with. She never believed I was borderline either. Should I keep taking this from the DBT T? I am now going to do damage. More than I ever have because I am unbelievably angry at her for her b s. This is very childish, but it is all I know to do without involving others. Others never know about the cuts, the downs, the anger. Someone told me at lunch that she could never believe I can be angry. That is generally so or I would be one big scar. Sorry about the rambling. What do you think? Now I cannot talk to her for 24 hrs. cause I am too mad not to cut and if you do your punishment is 24 hrs without phone calls. [ I feel like calling my old T.] I was really trying to do this right. Maybe she is power happy or something. Somehow it does not seem fair that I am paying the consequences for her unfair treatment. terrics
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